I am In LOVE (can you believe it?)

 

LOVE!

I am IN Love!  What a great feeling to know that after years of searching, or doing without, one day I would find someone who fulfills my desires and cares about me more than anyone ever could or would.  There is something liberating about it. There is something about knowing no matter what I go through, we will work it out.  No more secrets or arguments about who is right and who is wrong.  Since we both want the best for our relationship, we will find a way.  Pride is not in the midst.  Neither of us tries to make the other feel bad with "I told you so's."  When a mistake is made,  an apology is due, and accepted without hesitation.  I love that because I make ALOT of mistakes.  

 

PAST LOVE

 

There was a time that I thought I was really doing good in a relationship, but that proved not to be good.  I was caught off guard by more than I want to go into right now.  I decided I was on my own and I was okay.  I said I was not going to be hurt again, so I made plans to go it alone, not realizing I was still hurting myself.  That proved to not be the best course of action because I still had something on the inside of me that wanted to love and be loved even though I had experienced hurt.  So when I say I am loving this life, I really mean it.  I was not planning on it, but introductions were made, and here we are!  I am ever grateful for the person (you know who you are) who introduced me to this Man despite my rejections and mean looks.  I am so glad you were persistent.  I am sure there is a great reward in heaven just for you!  I love and appreciate you more than you know.

 

 

I LOVE BEING IN LOVE!

 

I used to assume that if someone's relationship was not in turmoil that they should be happy.  If a couple is not fighting/hurting each other, one should rejoice.  But to be IN Love!  To know that there are greater days ahead for us, and we are walking towards them together is epic.  I love the thought that every morning, I can wake up with an assurance that someone is right beside me.  The surprise conversations during the day, whispers in my ear, the gentle embraces through the night, the thoughtful gifts and surprises without reason.  I am past settling for mediocre, I am expecting great!  I am planning for the best, not settling based on past experiences.  Oh yes, I am IN Love!

   

STEPPING UP MY GAME!

 

I have a desire to make this relationship work both ways.  I don't want Him to be doing all the work.  So I am stepping up my game.  When I realize I am saying things that hurt Him, I will have to admit it and correct it.  Words of Affirmation is the 'Love Language" most men have.  So telling Him how much I appreciate Him and how well He takes care of me is necessary! He is a great Provider. I don't want a day to go by without Him knowing how much I love Him and how much He means to me.  The funny thing is I know that my words encourage Him to do even more.  I can't lose when I remind Him, I benefit!   

 

Even when I don't really feel like talking, I have to come out of myself, this in particular has strengthened our relationship. I fight it sometimes because I am tired, or I know the conversation is going to be something I need to fix, but because I really love Him, I MAKE myself talk it out.  Everything is not fixed in one conversation, but just talking  and hearing His thoughts about my situation makes me feel better.  I feel safe that no matter what we face, we will face it together and we will both do our part to ensure our relationship is healthy and strong.  So I'm stepping up my game!

 

LOVE REALLY IS SELF SACRIFICE

 

Because I love Him and He loves me, I plan to do the things I know He loves.  I need to listen more and pay attention to Him so when something hurts His heart, I am quick to adjust or to move towards removing that hurt.   This requires a sacrifice on my behalf, but when you are IN Love, it does not feel like a sacrifice at all.  He has sacrificed so much for me, His reputation, His home - He left it to come reside with me.  He sacrificed His relationship with His father.  (His daddy didn't approve of my lifestyle) And He even confronted His father and let Him know that if he loved Him, He had to accept me on His behalf because He was in love with me!  Can you imagine that!?  I am still trying to wrap my mind around that and I'm trying to live up to that kind of acceptance and love.  Today, we are good, His father has accepted me, I so love my Father in Love! 

 

 WE GOT MARRIED!

 

We finally made it official even though we were kind of living together for awhile.  He was so set on having me as His own, He actually moved in!  I know that is not the way it normally goes, but I tell you, He had me at "Hello".  I finally signed on the dotted line and committed my life to Him and only Him.   Because of things we really wanted to do, we have postponed the honeymoon, but since this is our one and only love, we will have all eternity to enjoy heaven on earth!

He already has children so I am in a blended family.  I have made up my mind to love His children like He does, and He has an everlasting love for them.  He is a good, good Father.  I look forward to learning to love better, laying aside any prejudices I may have been raised with and embracing them ALL... even those that are a bit wayward right now.  We are raising up kids that will be productive and purposeful in life.  I am happy, I know you are happy for me.  I hope and pray that one day, you will have a love like this, I can't wait for you to meet Him.

 

I love this life, and  I  am SOOOOO  IN Love with a wonderful Man, His name is Jesus!